why do some things really bother me? i know i have no right to be mad or angry or bothered in any way. but i still am. i feel betrayed, or jealous, or probly both in some situations.. but i try to convince myself that it doesnt mater, that i dont care. im just being selfish and i hate it. why cant i just let ppl do whatever they want and ill do whatever myself and be happy with that? so anoying.

on a new topic.. why does it feel like everything that happens, has already happened before? ive felt things before, ive thought things before, and i remember thinking "oh, this is different!" but it always seems like that. things seem 'special', but really its no different then before, is it? eventualy the things that seem different before stop being so special and eventualy fade away til you dont even remember. was that my fault? maybe. or maybe it just never was as special as i thought it was to begin with. did i give up before? did i not try hard enough? i know in some situations thats true. i wonder what i would do if given the chance again?

          Posted by Kenza at 6:51 p.m. // Comments: 2

2 Comments:

Wish I knew what you meant.

By  Anonymous, at Sat Feb 02, 05:32:00 p.m.  

ya me too.

By  Anonymous, at Sat Feb 02, 05:32:00 p.m.  

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