so what all did i miss.. well, work has been.. crasy i guess. were doing some new places now and jen wasnt working with us last week so it was just me and donna for half the week and terrisa came to help for 2 of the days. madalin came to work with us again on friday so.. that was an interesting day..
i started a dnd chara the other day. didnt get around to actualy playing tho cause by the time i was done making the chara it was late and i guess i just cant stay away from ffxi that long. went to sleep soon after too anyways. oh, ima chaotic nutral cleric if anybody wonders. i was gunna be evil, but then lance would probly smite me, so everybody said be nutral. i was thinking of makeing a pic of her but i doubt im going to get around to it. i havent done any artish stuff in so long, i think if i tried id end up getting frustrated and giving up anyways.
speaking of artish stuff, i was also thinking of redoing my blogger layout again. dunno if ill get around to doing that either, but if i do i think ill go back to something emo since half the time i post its when im being emo about something anwyays.. altho half the time i come here thinking im going to rant about something or other, and i end up rambling about something compleatly different. but oh well, probly better that way i suppose?
dont think you know what im thinking, cause you dont, and no mater how much i try to explain it, nothing im thinking can be explained. i cant think of any way to make this better. i feel so useless. i feel bad for being upset, and when im not i feel bad for feeling better. doesnt seem like theres any right or wrong anymore. i cant just pretend i dont feel anything. i wish i could so everyone else would be free to do whatever they want but i fail so bad at just sitting on the sidelines and watching, so im sorry for that, and im sorry for all the times i know im going to do it again..
Feeling: Not good enough
Posted by Kenza at 6:33 p.m. // Comments: 0